This song was interesting to create because I wrote the pre-chorus and chorus before the breakup, and then finished the song with Maddyysenn after the shoe dropped which gave me a particularly unique perspective on the whole thing. I had been with the person it's about for almost four years when it ended, and I simultaneously coudn't see a future without this person while also being able to see all the signs it was coming in hindsight.
Lyrics
An empty road is my walk home,
all I can think about is what I don't know
It should be easy to forget one single word you said,
but I haven't heard much from you since then
Maybe I'm just sensitive
Or maybe I'm not built for this
But honestly I don't think I can do this alone
Maybe I'm a drama queen
Or maybe somethings wrong with me
But you're the only one who's ever held on for this long
The worst kind of pain is waiting for you to leave
Most of the time I don't see what you say you see in me
It's not that I need your arms to hold me but
I'm so afraid that
If you're the catalyst then I'll be the grenade
You always found me in the crowd
But you seem so indifferent now
When did you look away
We used to feel like common sense
Just you and I against the rest
Starting to think we'll never find our way back
Maybe I'm just sensitive
Or maybe I'm not built for this
But honestly I don't think I can do this alone
Maybe I'm a drama queen
Or maybe somethings wrong with me
But you're the only one who's ever held on for this long
The worst kind of pain is waiting for you to leave
Most of the time I don't see what you say you see in me
It's not that I need your arms to hold me but
I'm so afraid that
If you're the catalyst then I'll be the grenade
I’ll be the grenade
Maybe it's all a big mistake
Maybe we were always meant to break
But I don't wanna leave
Maybe you'll never take the fall
Maybe you've learned nothing at all
But I've learned to make the silence sing
The worst kind of pain is waiting for you to leave
Most of the time I don't see what you say you see in me
It's not that I need your arms to hold me but
I'm so afraid that
If you're the catalyst then I'll be the grenade